Photo by: Megan Preece Photography
(Sidenote: If those aren't words I live by, I don't know what are).
I knew today would be an emotional one for me, so I gave myself permission and space in my calendar, to just let it all happen.
We dropped him off, happening to park our car facing his classroom windows. I cuddled him the whole way to the door. The teachers were quick to whisk him from me and tell me it was time to say goodbye, and so I did (appreciating having someone giving me those directions).
I got in the car, looking straight at him (although he had no idea I was right there), he busily looked around the classroom, smiling, giggling and gobbling down waffles the teachers had already served him. The tears started to flow as I watch him.
I know that each day I drop him off will get easier and easier, I've experienced it before, but it doesn't stop me from feeling many competing emotions as this infant turns to a toddler. This almost toddler is ready for this next step in his life journey, and I am overjoyed for him.
I have committed to treating myself with compassion and even more family time than usual over the coming weeks, as we adjust to this new family life. If my little guy is anything like my daughter, this won't phase him for a moment, but I know that I need to be gentle on myself, as I work through this transition.
Mamma - remember that our journey is our own and no two are the same. I encourage you to honour how you are feeling during times of transition, giving yourself the space to work through it and surrounding yourself with compassion.